This is my confessional song. I, unfortunately, am quite Passive-Aggressive and I HATE IT!
That's why I like Blogging, it allows me the opportunity to openly express ANGER and FRUSTRATION! Oh sure I still get to blame the world for my problems, but venting is stage one of taming the nature of the beast. I am getting better at 'exploding'...atleast out here.
According to Wiki;
PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE-BEHAVIOR is a defense mechanism that can manifest itself as resentment, stubborness, procrastination, sulleness, or repeated failure to accomplish requested tasks for which one is assumed, often explicitly, to be responsible. Basically the most TEDIOUS character traits in the Universe!
Willful witholding of understanding and blaming others is said to be more often than not, only partly conscious. I don't believe that because I am now fully aware of my shortcomings...which only makes it worse.
Ironically, PAB is believed to stem from a specific childhood stimulus like overbearing parental figures...SEE you can blame it on someone else!
Maybe that's why I always enjoyed the company of people who have emotional outbursts in public..flash fires of incoherence... and then they are done with it. How cool is that. Instead of massaging grievances and regrets for 40 years it's over. Finito. I've been getting back at people for two generations who don't even know that I am even mad at them! How stupid is that?
Someday soon I hope to be able to just 'tear a new one' and scream and lambaste everybody..especially the people that I love. Instead of sulking around and hoping that they figure out how f*cking mad I am, I'll just let 'er rip and be done with it.
It just seems a lot more practical and efficient.
Are you any good at getting mad?